weekend quotes...

i'm busy working on seminary applications, lots of essays and reference info, and i need to do my taxes so i can do my fasfa AND it's superbowl sunday. so here are two quotes from this weekend, they're super super different, but both things that i'm working on right now.

the first is from 'the sopranos' --"depression is rage turned inward" i've been struggling with feeling like i need to acknowledge that i'm probably depressed. i think i am busy enough to not really notice it all the time, but whenever i stop for any period of time and think, it's just not good. my supervisor about a month ago told me that i should get angry more often, or more accurately, i should express my anger more often. it's something i struggle with, anger was not a productive emotion in my house when i was growing up, and this line from the sopranos really made me think about getting that anger out and not just swallowing it, and that the past 27 years of trying to not be angry is part of my depression.

so the second quote was from the sermon this morning at church. today we talked about the transfiguration of the lord; matthew 17: 1-9. naturally it was a jesus heavy sermon but i think you could substitute god for jesus in the following quote and have the same effect. our pastor said "for how will jesus' light shine if it does not shine through you." i loved the implied challenge of living a good christian life full of love and acceptance and service. for me that's how jesus' light shines through me and on my life, when i'm working with kids- college kids, teenagers, little kids, anyone. that chance to be present with them and rejoice in them as people and the being that god created is just spectacular.

i hope you're all having a lovely sunday. i'm going to be working on the following question all day i think...

"in light of jesus' parable of the rich man and lazarus (luke 16: 19-31) what role, if any, do you think the judgement of god plays in the gospel of grace?"

the other option is to write about a book that has influenced my faith...hmmmm maybe that would be easier!

happy february!