holy crap. i don't think i've ever been more ready for a friday. it's been a long, stressful, emotional week and i am all done.
dad goes to the hospital for check ups pretty much every week. so mom has to take a day a week off to cart him up there and hang out and bring him back. they're mostly uneventful, one trip he got to go down and say hi to the cicu nurses and one in particular who was just awesome when he was in the hospital, sometime soon he wants to visit his rehab nurses, he says hi to all the doc's that helped him and he gets blood taken and people look at the liver to be sure it's ok.
dad's liver enzyme levels have been high and the doctors haven't been able to figure out why. he's had a biopsy in the past 2 weeks that looked fine, he's had an ultrasound on the liver that is fine, he's feeling fine (at least from what they tell me), but the enzyme level is high. so he went to the hospital wednesday and i called mom on my way home from FISH to ask how it all went. apparently they think that since dad has been on so many anti rejection meds it has allowed the hep c to build back up in his body. it's so frustrating because before the surgery the doctors were saying that the disease rarely affects the liver the same way after the surgery and that it all but disappears. i mean for the love of all that's sacred, he doesn't have his own liver, he doesn't have a drop of his own blood left in his body, come on! so mom said they are figuring out what drugs to put him on, one of the ones they're considering is a drug he was on right after he got diagnosed. he was on it for a year and it didn't really help anything and in fact made him incredibly sick for the whole year. he wasn't hungry, didn't really drive, slept most of the time, felt nauseous, just had no real quality of life. he went off the drugs after a year and then did a bunch of holistic healing kind of stuff with diet and supplements and whatnot before he got cancer. primary liver cancer in the absence of hep c is extremely rare, so the disease led to the cancer. which led to almost dying and 2 liver transplants in 1 week. i don't think i can do that again, i don't know if dad's body could do that again.
i'm trying to not get too upset. mom's not sure about what drugs they'll put him on and they haven't seen any of the cancer coming back. but it's all so real and so close. he just came home from the hospital on december 22.
sigh. sorry for the depressing blog post. if you need a laugh you should go to nbc.com and check out the weekend update video's from last week's snl. the tina fey on update and mike huckabee update clips are pretty darn funny.
i hope you all have a lovely weekend!
r
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- "people are gonna be who they're gonna be and we need to learn to love them for who they are and let them love who they're gonna love. there. that's that" ellen degeneres
2 comments:
rach,
the sophomores at our school are starting to read night by elie wiesel and my friend shelby and i have been talking a lot about the holocaust in general. i think this is one of those instances where we have this loving god, who wants the best for us, and for us to succeed, but yet horrific things like the holocaust occur.
there's a scripture that says that there is opposition in all things. opposition is good, because it keeps things in perspective. once we get too comfortable in one spot, we stop progressing.
but when is enough, enough? why does the opposition need to be so much greater than one person can seemingly take? when i get to heaven, these are questions i will ask.
(this is in response to the karma post -- and that you referenced it again)
Hope you're feeling better my girl.
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