day 3

so today i went up and hung at the hospital. dad's doing ok, but just ok. yesterday we thought the doc's had said the liver was slow...it's still slow to the point of not really working. which is sooooo not the point of a transplant. they say that sometimes it takes a few days for the liver to realize where it is and what it's suppossed to be doing. so we're just praying that it kicks in any minute. dad was pretty with it today, still has the breathing tube thing in so he can't talk, but he wrote us a few notes, asking what day it was and if he was ok. it's so hard and i just want him to be ok. i don't know what happens if the liver doesn't start working. do we just have to give up? mom said we're just not even thinking about that option. the nurse said he would probably be in icu for 5ish days, so that's wednesday or thursday. the nice thing about that is that he has nurses there all the time, the bad part is there's not really anywhere for us to hang out. and when he has the breathing thing in he can't talk to us so we just feel hopeless.

i'm exhausted and totally drained. hopefully i'll get to spend some time decompressing tomorrow. i'm just completely spent. ok, i think i have about an hour to lay down before i have to drive back to the hospital.

sigh.