for serious

not 2 minutes after i wrote about how wonderful wednesday was, it went to shit and was stressful until i left for my doctors appointment at 3:30 which was also stressful because i was leaving the staff kinda short handed and i feel bad about that, but i needed to get my prescription so i left. so tonight i went to see dar williams at the state and she was awesome! our seats were in the 4th row, she played 'after all', 'the christians and the pagans', 'the babysitters here', 'spring street'. just amazing and she told really funny stories. there's a song about jesus camp that i neeeeeeed to find and play at a fish talent show. hilarious. i think this year i'll bust out 'christians and the pagans' for the christmas show. ha. good stuff. so my shitty middle of the day was totally won over by an amazing show. dar was awesome, my friend d went with me and we had fun, he told me some great (but creepy) stories and i ran into a friend who wants me to babysit her kids(= easy money and they're super fun anyway). and while i was sitting there listening to dar sing some fantastic song i got an idea of what to write for my little meditation thing for agape on thursday night(it's really a short sermon, but it freaks me out to call it that) so i'm writing that right now and i think i'll be posting those things each time i write them, every other week, just to put up what i'm doing and get some feedback (that means someone other than jess needs to comment.not that i don't love jessica's comments, cause i do, but come on. i know you're reading. i can see you)

oh two other fun things, i found out i get a free gym membership! yay! and two of my friends just joined the same gym so i'll have workout buddies some days and guilt me into working out buddies all the time :O)

i also made an appointment with a therapist next week. i'm trying to be excited, but right now i'm just a little scared. i have this terrible vision of going in there and either a)crying the whole time or b)cracking jokes so i don't revert to a and therefore not actually talking about what life is like right now and not getting any help. i would be, as my little brother likes to say, 'taking the easy way out'. and i'm not going to do that! it's time to commit to starting to fix rachel. i have all these things going for me, it will be all sorts of good :O)

ok. back to jesus.

peace yo